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Tired and ranting

It's been months and many have happened and my life is hitting rock bottom.

I tried to enter 2017 with positivity. I tried. really hard.

Initially it seemed great. Like I could do it, and things will go okay. All those shitty positive vibes.

firstly, I was offered to enter the prev company I was working in. One of the reasons I left was because of the management. But since they have changed the CEO , which the director herself, and she herself requested that I joined them again, So I did.

They promised lots of things and cut the story short, their business has to end, and I had to go, despite everything else promised.

and now I am stuck with no job and worrying my heart out for our finacial status.

Now Im ot gonna dwell so much on their attitudes, the betrayal, the chronism, the shitty peoples ive met.. Cause well, I cant change them and shits happened. and now I am hitting rock bottom.

god I havent felt so low for such a long long time.

Ive been to 5 interviews, got 1 job offer a…
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